[...he can't help it, he laughs-- silently, shoulders shaking as he leans against Noh-Varr, holding on to him a bit more tightly.]
Is there a danger of poor socialization, he asks the guy who lived with a bunch of ghosts.
[Breathe. He can't just leave it at that. Ryan inhales, exhales slowly, and manages to still himself.]
There-- there is, yeah. I mean- I haven't had a lot of human contact in my life, not before I got here. They thought that what I can do was just hallucinations, something wrong, my parents homeschooled me because I couldn't just play normal in public. They were trying to protect me, in a way, but... there are so many ways to just sort of-- get separated from the whole, you know? My case was more on the extreme end, but a lot of people just don't quite fit in. They don't connect in the way most humans do with each other.
[Ryan's silent for a moment there, relaxing a little further before he continues, quiet.]
You start wondering if you ever really can, sometimes. Like I said, not really a normal case, but- shit, I'm not even sure I consider myself human anymore. I call myself human, I'm pretty sure I'm thoroughly biologically human, but I keep catching myself saying they instead of we when I talk about them. Human relations are just... chaotic, at best.
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Is there a danger of poor socialization, he asks the guy who lived with a bunch of ghosts.
[Breathe. He can't just leave it at that. Ryan inhales, exhales slowly, and manages to still himself.]
There-- there is, yeah. I mean- I haven't had a lot of human contact in my life, not before I got here. They thought that what I can do was just hallucinations, something wrong, my parents homeschooled me because I couldn't just play normal in public. They were trying to protect me, in a way, but... there are so many ways to just sort of-- get separated from the whole, you know? My case was more on the extreme end, but a lot of people just don't quite fit in. They don't connect in the way most humans do with each other.
[Ryan's silent for a moment there, relaxing a little further before he continues, quiet.]
You start wondering if you ever really can, sometimes. Like I said, not really a normal case, but- shit, I'm not even sure I consider myself human anymore. I call myself human, I'm pretty sure I'm thoroughly biologically human, but I keep catching myself saying they instead of we when I talk about them. Human relations are just... chaotic, at best.